thewordsyouneverunderstood
You want the truth ? Okay well fine. The truth is I am still in love with you. I know it sounds stupid and I know that I promised to never call again but I fucking miss you and I don’t know why that’s so hard to understand. You keep thinking that whatever we had isn’t worth remembering anymore but I keep thinking that it is. I know I fucked up, I know I made mistakes and I know I never wrote you an apology letter and I know that right now, right this second, it’s too late to fix anything. I love you but I know that we can’t be together. I don’t know if you still love me and I don’t know if you still think of me sometimes, and maybe you’ve forgotten all about it already and 5 months ago, let me tell you that I couldn’t even fucking get out of bed in the mornings. It’s gotten better, eventually but that doesn’t mean I ever stopped loving you. I don’t think I ever will and man, I don’t give a fuck if that makes your girlfriend angry or upset and I don’t care if she hates me or holds your hand a little tighter as I pass you by on the street. I’m not trying to make you love me again, I’m trying to breathe a little better. I’m not doing this for you, because I don’t think it’s worth it anymore. I’m doing this for me. You want the truth, well there it is.
thewordsyouneverunderstood
One day you’re going to see her holding hands with someone who took your chance. She won’t even notice you because she’s too busy laughing with the stupid jokes he makes. And it will burn your heart seeing that beautiful smile on her face and realizing that you’re not the reason anymore. And then it will finally hit you: it was her, it was always her.